First off, love all your stories. So good to know you guys also do silly things, not just me.
Secondly, here's BabyH, looking handsome.
I am busy trying to find some pregnancy books that apply to my situation. I find most of them completely useless. First, the introduction, to the nine months of your life during which you will see yourself flowering and blooming. Nobody is mentioning freaking out every other day or so. Then, the statement that "you will never again be alone in the world, you are part of someone and they are part of you forever"-do any of these writers know how enormously alone you feel when you lose a baby? And do I really want to read this now, when I know that it might happen again, do I want to remember that I might be on my way to feeling again even more alone than before, even more empty?
The rest of my grievances have to do with the lack of applicability that most advice books have to my life, for example:
a. sex in pregnancy - I wish. It's gonna be a long, long time, so brace yourself, MrH.
b. exercise in pregnancy - unless they have some sort of bedrest workout, I doubt I will be able to use it.
c. preparing the nursery - do I look insane to you? so I can have to disassemble it if I lose the baby again? learned that lesson once: no baby clothes, no baby gifts, no baby anything until actual live baby present.
On the other hand, I crave to know what normal pregnancy feels like, so I am trying to learn that feeling from these books. I want experience that innocent hope that everything will go well , because I forgot, or maybe I never had it to begin with. I also really want to know if it is ok to dye my hair, because my roots are going to show in the next month or so. Does anybody here in cyberspace have any advice about hair dye?