I had a bit of nausea yesterday, and quite a bit more today, to the extent that I am finding it hard to eat my veggies and drink my juice concoctions. I talk about the juicing quite a bit, and it is an involved procedure at my house. We have a centrifugal juicer for carrots and celery, and sometimes apples/oranges, plus a masticator juicer for leaves, so I daily juice a bunch of chard or collard greens, plus about six carrots, a bunch of celery, and an apple, then I drink it, like it or not. It is usually not too bad, but now that the nausea is starting, I really don't know how I am going to down the green juice from the leaves, that is the tough part.
What keeps my nutritional goals alive is the thought of little babyH that is growing so much every day! This week, he (I think it's a boy again) is growing from a little tube to an S-shaped embryo, and at the end of the week he will look almost like a little human project. At the rate at which he is growing, I know that he needs the best nutrition, and leaves/veggies have a lot of folic acid, beta carotene, vitamin C and who knows what else. I would never be able to eat and absorb all of the stuff I am putting through the juicer, so the juicing makes sense. Of course, in addition to that, I try to actually eat vegetarian meals, although I slip sometimes and today I had Hungarian sausage for lunch. (I felt so guilty afterwards that I promised myself no more slip ups during the first trimester, really don't want to feed babyH any nitrates if I can help it). I introduced dairy again, and am liking it quite a lot, at least this way I won't have to worry about the calcium or vitamin B12.
I am sometimes feeling guilty about upsetting others that are still struggling with infertility just by my mere presence. I don't know if I should comment on people's blogs, perhaps I am a bit of an unwanted person at this point. I feel happy and full of optimism, and perhaps this is reminding others of what they hoped a pregnancy would bring to them. I am sometimes feeling this in real life with people as well. I don't quite know how to deal with this sixth sense that I am upsetting other women, so I am keeping to myself. Any guidance would be appreciated.