Wednesday, November 3, 2010


I had a weird dream last night.  For the past couple of days, I have dreamt quite a few interesting things, amongst which the Third World War and a whole lot of bombing.  Scary dreams like that...

Anyway, last night I dreamt that I was about to start this frozen cycle of IVF, and that upon going for an ultrasound they discovered that I was actually very pregnant, that I had somehow gotten pregnant from the previous IVF, and the doctors had missed that .  I was even at term.  I went in to the labour ward to have the baby, everything went really well, and the physician who did the delivery handed me a baby boy.  She said that I was looking very much incredulous, like I did not think that this would finally happen, that this could happen.

The baby boy was so so cute.  I held him, laughed at his baby faces, at his lovely mouth, I smelled his hair. I remember saying to the nurses that indeed I was amazed that he was here and quite incredulous that it had finally happened for me, but also now that he was here, he felt very much normal, like he belonged here, like this was exactly the way things should be.  I was breastfeeding in the dream, and compared to other dreams, I remember a lot of detail, and it felt very much real.

Unfortunately the next day after birth, my baby became a mirage image, and he disintegrated.  He was not real.  I went back to the hospital and they told me that I had had a "hysterical pregnancy", or a pseudopregnancy.  I was very embarrassed, and had to tell everyone who was asking me how the baby was that the baby hadn't been real, that I had created the whole thing with my mind.

Then I woke up.

Whatever could it mean?  Hmmm, that's a hard one.


  1. That is a pretty bizarre dream. But I think maybe it means that your next baby will be a boy. Apparently dreams are the most reliable method of gender prediction (only second to ultrasounds). On the topic of dreams - I recently had an "Inception" type dream-within-dream type of dream. And I remember in my dream thinking...I bet I'm is started touching the couch and feeling the texture very clearly and I know I'm dreaming, yet it seems so real. Then I thought I woke up and told someone about it, but then I realized (when I finally woke up) that it was still a dream.

  2. I worry that it means that my next pregnancy will also disintegrate like my first one did (i.e. by stillbirth or miscarriage).
    I loved Inception. Dreams are so interesting. I also loved reading Jung's Interpretation of Dreams, although a little heavy for a fun read.

  3. On the subject of dream interpretation - I disagree - I don't think it would mean anything nearly as worrying as you mentioned. And I sure hope you don't end up on those TV shows like "I didn't know I was pregnant".

  4. AAAAhhh, how I envy those women!