I am starting to settle into a nice routine with Emma and the rest of my family. She cluster feeds in the evenings, then sleeps very well, with two-three feeds at night evenly spaced. I wake up quite rested at 10 am or so, and feed her first thing in the morning, then bathe her (in the sink, we still don't have a tub), then feed her again, then I wash and have breakfast while mom holds her. I don't know what I will do when mom is gone, as Emma is little miss social in the mornings and will not simply sleep by herself. I have decided to take her out for a quick walk around the block every morning after my breakfast, as I need to get used to maneuvering her and the stroller. She starts out in the stroller, sleeps a little, then gets hungry (she cluster feeds in the mornings too) and wants some boob. So I end up holding the baby on the breast with one hand, and pushing the empty stroller with the other hand :)
Everybody is telling me that I am spoiling her because I keep her on the breast when she starts crying or is upset. But I think that there is nothing more natural. Why is it that most of baby rearing advice goes against the grain of what babies want to do? Babies know what is right for them, and Emma likes to snuggle up to my warm body and sleep with my boob in her mouth, then so be it, that is why I am taking time off work so that I can supply these basic needs for her full time. Hopefully by January, when she is 6 months old, she will naturally want some independence...otherwise I am in trouble, as I have to go back to work then, at least half-days.
The other issue is the introduction of bottles or soothers: I don't want any artificial nipples near her, as I struggled hard to forge a good breastfeeding relationship. She had trouble latching and I don't want to backtrack any of my efforts. The soother (pacifier) she spits out in any case, so I don't think we'll be using it anytime soon. The bottles are not necessary until I go back to work, and even then she will be eating some solids so it won't be all that needed for the brief time in the afternoons that I will be gone.