Here is an important question: am I still eligible for a push present if I get a C/section? The reason it is important is because I did another ebay bidding doodle and won a pair of antique sea pearl earrings, which I can only justify as my push present to myself...hm, I wonder when I will start to behave like a responsible parent? I thought I was, I already sold half my perfume collection on ebay and am starting to trim out the purse collection as well. I had managed to finance the Graco Snugride carseat with my purchases and was quite full of pride...
Two days ago I ran into an acquaintance who had twin girls due at the same time as Adrian. They were 15 months old, and I could not help but think that Adrian would have been 15 months as well, if he had lived. I suspect these thoughts will never leave me, although I am immensely happy about having Emma. I had a great pregnancy with her (minus the nausea and vomiting) and do not regret having to get pregnant again, or having to have the cerclage, or the c/section. I just wish I had both babies. Although, as MrH correctly points out, if I had Adrian, I would not have had Emma, but another baby, from another egg and sperm, in a different ovulatory/IVF cycle. I guess what is meant to happen will happen.
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