Full term today! Can this be real? I am not even so big as to waddle. In fact, I hardly feel any different than I did at 28 weeks, minus the swollen hands and the insomnia. Still swimming 1-1.5 km per day, which helps with all of my pregnancy discomforts.
Today I will be giving my obstetrician a nice goodbye gift -a really powerful juicer, same as the one I use (although it is not goodbye yet, he still has to do my c/section). I am very thankful for everything he did for me, and am amazed that in such a small town as the one I live I got such really good care.
I am still fearing that something might go wrong with the pregnancy, as somewhere in my mind I still feel very defective and the thought of being able to carry a pregnancy to full term and beyond still does not match with the self image I had so far. I suppose at some point I should change that self-image... I also guess that I will soon have to let go of all of my infertility drama and move on to parenting. Regardless of how I get to be a parent, I will still be only that, a parent. Although as far as I am concerned, I will also be a woman for whom a miracle happened.