overwhelmed

I don't know how to install the car seat.  I don't even fit in the back of my car to try to figure it out.  I can't read instructions very well because my attention span is short, and my patience is even shorter.  I struggled for two hours yesterday to collapse the Stokke stroller.  In the end, my husband did it in two seconds in the morning, just as I was going to return it back to the shop and was checking to see how much Greyhound would cost for a stroller return to Vancouver.  I bought a king size bed yesterday thinking that I would like to co-sleep with the baby, and cancelled the purchase today thinking that it would be too big for the bedroom and it would require repainting some of the walls to cover holes left behind by moving furniture and a big heavy wall mirror.  I can't handle this much change for now, I feel too overwhelmed.  I got a Stokke crib online and found out it was only going to arrive in September.  I cancelled that purchase as well.  Then I decided that I wanted a crib after all, and got the same crib from Vancouver, hopefully it will arrive by the end of August.  My car is very old (12 years old) and does not heat inside in winter, and I am worried that they won't be able to fix it, and Emma will be cold in the car, or more likely I will have to buy a new car and then worry about making payments while on mat leave or working half-time (i.e. not a lot of money).

I have all these worries all at once, and did not sleep a wink last night.  I used to be so cool, calm and collected about baby related problems, and only worried about pregnancy problems. Now, with 11 days to go, I am realizing that installing a car seat and learning how to open and close a stroller can very well be overwhelming, and that trying to make decisions about crib versus co-sleeping is well beyond my mushy placenta brain at the moment.