I feel like this pregnancy is turning me into a less than ideal mother for Emma. I am very sick and tired all the time. The nausea is making me miserable, and the bleeding is causing depression and worry. Emma, on the other hand, is full of energy and demanding, she is not letting me get her clothes on, runs around naked with me trying to chase after her with a diaper, and generally behaves like a 2 year old. I have little energy for 2 year old antics, I swear. Sometimes I wonder if I am not doing her a disservice by having another baby, because apart from a brief period of time in which I might feel good around 25-32 weeks (if I make it that far) the rest of the pregnancy will be one huge nausea cloud.
From my experience, having a newborn was tough, and Emma was not easy, but the pregnancy is by far the worst part of the experience. I am just not used to never ending sickness. And it is certainly taking its toll on all of us.