14w

I am going through a rather stressful time at work, and that is why I am not very active on the blog at this point.  I am still working full time, and will likely have to cut back a lot or perhaps stop altogether at around 18 weeks, if my cervix is shortening on the ultrasound.  The OB said that it almost always does, although he did not know if with a TAC things will be different, given the fact that he hasn't done one preventatively before.  We'll have to live and see.  On the one hand, the situation at work is taking my mind completely off the pregnancy, and hence I don't have much time to worry about my cervix, on the other hand, I am starting to feel better from the nausea point of view and hence I hardly ever think about my pregnancy during the day.  I found myself running upstairs two steps at a time, as I usually do, and that is probably no good for my uterus.  The OB said it should be ok, and that I should think of my cervix as competent at this point in time, but really, who knows when the IC will raise its head.

I need to remember, all through this stressful time, that the MOST important thing in life is the people around me, my husband, my baby, my family.  As long as they are well, nothing else really matters.  We can always live more modestly and cut back on things, the job, money and things are just changeable, variable, adaptable elements in our lives.  The only thing that will really matter out of this year is whether I have this baby or not.  The rest is fluff.