It is official, I am off work now. I am getting too many Braxton Hicks when up and about, and I tried working half days but towards the end of the evening I end up with a hard uterus that is irritable and keeps me awake at night worrying, so I went to see my obs today who said it is not worth it. I am also starting progesterone intravaginally (in Canada we don't have the injectable form, which honestly I would prefer, as the vaginal progesterone is very messy).
I had a good cry at the obstetrician's office today, I told him how freaked out I am by the Braxton Hicks. I am very sensitive to them as well and panic when they intensify. It does not help that exactly ten day from today is when I went in to the hospital and was dilated and that was the beginning of the end. I am expecting something to go wrong now as well. I thought I was stronger than this, but I am definitely crumbling inside with worries. I want this little girl so much. I love how she kicks non stop, and would hate to lose her when she is so strong and full of life.
We went to a 3D ultrasound last week, despite knowing that it would be a bit too early to see good detail. We did get to see her face, she has a little upturned nose, and she was hugging the placenta the whole time during the ultrasound. That was so cute, to see her sleeping on the warm placenta, sucking her thumb. The 3D is something I had wanted to do with Adrian, but never got a chance. Now at least I know I did it with Emma. I think I will name her Emma, although I am still getting a feel for the name and the baby.
I am knitting a cozy wrap for her, will post pictures when done. If anybody is a knitter, please recommend what type of yarn works best for babies: choices are acrylic, cotton, and wool. I will be making a hat and mittens/booties next, then a sweater, and then some pants.