This pregnancy has gone so well and so smoothly that I am almost shocked. I mean no bleeding, no cervical shortening, no real scares at all. Everything is amazingly normal. I cannot believe it on most days. I still half expect to see blood when I wipe on the toilet, and when I don't see any I feel so blessed that I have this healthy big baby inside, that nothing else seems to matter. And time is flying by! I thought that I would be in anxiety hell this whole pregnancy, and instead I am loving it, and I am quite a lot more relaxed than I ever thought myself capable of.
Today I was in the lineup for the restrooms at the movies (saw Bridesmaids, funny and quite good) and I caught my reflexion in the mirror. Well, let me tell you I had forgotten that I am pregnant for a moment, and I was shocked to see how huge I am. It still feels like my body, with minor adjustments, mainly involving bladder real estate, but when I look in the mirror it looks so different! And when I lie here thinking about the fact that I have a whole baby in my belly, a large one at that, I am in awe. Is this really happening to me? I didn't think it ever would.