I am going to be 8 weeks in two more days. I am very nauseous today and, despite using ondansetron (which I am rationing a bit, taking only 4 mg at a time, and only if I am working or very sick) I have started vomiting.
For some reason, I am not as gracious this time with the nausea and vomiting as I was with Emma's pregnancy. I had so much more patience back then! I felt like my body was hers to use, and that was that. This time, I am waiting impatiently for the nausea weeks to subside, so that I can be a good mother to Emma again. As it is, being in bed makes for a cuddly momma, but hardly for any learning or outdoors activities, and in my head, that is what makes me a good mother, giving her opportunities to learn and live a healthy life. Is being next to me in bed while I am two shades of green healthy? Is listening to me puke scarring for her?
I think essentially that is what is at the root of the impatience and lack of acceptance for this pregnancy's nausea. I am just starting to figure out how I can be a good mother to two babies. I guess the road is long and complex ahead of me.
PS. I deleted the prior post with the picture of food, as it was making me sick. Don't ask.
Being pregnant with a little one can be tough, especially with the morning sickness. As long as you're spending as much time as you can with Emma, you're being a good mama! Hopefully the morning sickness doens't last too long.
ReplyDeleteThere are days I worry about being a good mom to two kids, especially when I feel like a less-than-stellar mom to one. You aren't alone!
Boo to morning sickness but awesome that you're 8wks! Hope the nausea subsides quickly!!!
ReplyDeleteI am guessing the fact that you are out here commenting means things are going well? grin :)
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