Wednesday, November 13, 2013

it's a ...

So, earliest gender reveal on the internet ever, at 13w3d, courtesy of non invasive prenatal genetic testing. The baby is healthy.  Has the right number of chromosomes.  And the last two chromosomes are my X and mrH's Y.

A boy, due on the same day as Adrian... How many more coincidences?  I am a bit stunned to be honest.  I am excited about it, but really have no idea what to do with a little boy.  How often do I need to wash his penis?  Did I just say penis?  Can I still have a bath with him naked when he is two years old, like I do now with Emma?  Can we be as comfortable with each other's bodies as Emma and I are? I want that intimacy again, and fear that it will be different with a boy, that he won't come as close, or let me as close to him.

And then there's the clothes...I want to cry thinking that no baby of mine will wear the little pink socks that Emma will outgrow.  All of the little girly outfits that I have loved so much...I know that this is superficial, and I am deeply aware of the gift of being able to raise a baby boy, that will turn into a man one day, which is worth so much more than pink ruffles...but still, pink ruffles...


  1. You get to be as close to him, and as comfortable. But you also need to know that you need to let him some day, maybe even more than a daughter.
    Congrats and all the best, as always! Also to mr H.

  2. omg, what wonderful news. Congrats!!

  3. First off, congratulations!!! Such wonderful news that he is healthy and doing well! I can't speak to having a daughter that I've been able to parent but I can tell you with absolute certainty that little boys absolutely adore their Momma's and it is the sweetest thing!!! I was also worried about taking care of a boy and penis, etc before having him but you definitely figure it all out and will look back at it later laughing that you ever worried about it in the first place. Seriously, little boys are SO much fun, so loving, and fantastic! I'm so excited for you!!!

  4. Hi, why so quiet? We are waiting for news!